"Everyone hears what you say. Friends listen to what you say.
Best friends listen to what you don't say."
everything above, was taken from her blog.
i nearly cried after reading tht, was so true. met her last evening and i just say everything tt's in me out to her, really everything. She's so different from me, she's a busy girl and happily in love. im jus th opposite of her, im jus too free and love is having problem with me. I asked her lots of questions and from there, i've realized tons of things. She might not really understand hw i feels inside, neither can she giv me much advices, but her presence and listening ears ; more than enough :) thanks girl for everything not only tonight :)
i hav been an immature lover all this while,
i always thought we must spend lots of time tgt, text often and many other useless stuff la. so when i didnt get what i expect/want, i wil start to whine and complain. But th fact tht i've been wanting and expecting more and more everyday which leads to many things today. Just simply bcus i cant make myself to trust, i created a mess out of everything, and here i am. only now, i realize the big big mistake. Now then i know, its not too late to change. I really hope i'll real soon, not for anyone good but just for myself. if we're meant to be, we'll. but you knw im stil here. for this is th real time im doing so much for l.o.v.e which doesnt seems beneficial to ppl.
and i've been a total bitch for some time,
this two awesomes. Mr J and Ms Y, hav been talking to me at night, scolding + brainwashing me and everything to make me face th reality. and i pissed them off uncountable times, im really sorry to th both of you, i think i wil be crying badly every night w/o th two of you, i know everything you guys said are for my good. but really, not tht i doesnt want to listen, there's so many parts of me going against you guys. im really trying hard, spotting my own mistakes and correcting it. sorry for being th most stubborn creature on earth. I've so so so many bad to change away, way to go , long long way to go.
girl, i knw you were like me once. and you knw hw stupid it is, i knw you're correcting me based on yr past experience, i really appreciate it okay. ♥
and also,
friends for you concern every now and then . you guys knw who you're :)
im not breaking down, i wont. i've found.