It has been alittle happening recently,
I've so much to say but i guess it wont be easy to type it all down.

I've gotten one, and i've lose one.
I know there's many many diff types of people out there. But i didnt xpect myself to come across so many diff types at such age. I know nineteen isnt young, but im not prepared for all this. I trust people too much. And i listen to people too easily too! Now, i've came across such things. only till now, i realise hw complicated one can be. I think im those kind of ppl, i've to experience it all by myself then i'll understand everything behind it.

Have been complaining to mummy alittle recently. Bro and Mum somehow scolded me and knocked some sense into me. Lol, they keep repeating the old thing. I wonder hw long will those 'sense' stay in me. I really thought we could really be good all the way till ripe age, i really thought i was lucky and fortunate. But i could only thought for this short period of time.

Its my life, friends around me could only talk to me. Give me advices, talk to me alittle here and there but they can never make decision for me. So, whenever i've decided on smth. I hope they will stil support me. I might have made the wrong choice at times, but i've my reason behind it. Friends may think that im stupid, dumb and foolish to make some decisions. I know you guys care, but .. sometimes its just so hard to explain.

Is there a need to spread around? I've heard many different stories. I chose not to trust or believe. I believe in the good side tt i've seen in you. Why did all this took place? Why cant we jus go on smoothly? Is there really sucha need? I know you're smarter than me, i know you're more capable, you've more friends than me, you've more people to care, love and listen to you. I know you're wonderful. I'm nothing compare to you. you knw me well, you knw my weakness and you know my bad. Why mus you work towards this negative side of me to bring me down even more? What did i actually do to deserve you to treat me like this? I've never bad mouth or backstab you, i've never do anything behind yr back. Is it really so difficult for us to be who we used to be? Its so sudden. There's nothing i could do anymore. If we're meant to be, we'll eventually.

When will i learn to stand up for myself and for my own rights?
When will i be like an indepedent teen? Not depending on ppl when i actually can.
When will i be able to tell, who're the good and bad people out there?
When will i not trust and believe what people say so easily?

Only after what mum told me, i realise how hard is it to find a good friend that can really be trusted.
Like i've said, i dont need many friends. I rather have a few good friends then to have tons of come-and-go friends. I'm glad that i've found my good friends :)


As long as everything will be fine,
It doesnt matter how long it actually takes.

And pls,
Judge and comment only when you heard both sides of the story.

Thank you wxy, Thank you Tsh-y, Thank you Sjs.
xoxo.